I feel.. empty, I can't seem to be able to talk to people anymore. I don't know what to say, I am afraid that I might say something wrong or insult someone. And I feel like everything has already been talked about, there's nothing left.
So I just sit there and smile awkwardly... I also seem to have developed a concentrating disorder and I can't notice everything everyone around me says... so often, there are situations in which I just "smile and nod", hoping that this is the right thing to do.
Uff.. and I feel guilty because I ask people to spend time with me and then I am such a terrible conversationalist.
Some of it is probably from tiredness, I haven't slept much in the last few days and the "symptoms" are probably more noticeable then. I can't fall asleep until morning and if I do, I see terrible dreams that barely let me sleep.
Um.. alright. That's it for now.
